Before safety mattered,
we rode in back
without seatbelts.
The radio never played
anything that rocked.
On long trips I became
an agent tracking secrets,
taking pictures with the camera
hidden inside my eyes.
I stared at the back
of my father's head,
his black hair starting to gray,
and fed him directions.
Always faster.
Sometimes it worked.
Usually we snailed along.
I can't remember when I discovered
I was a double agent,
when exactly I cracked the code,
the slight nod. Then I rode in front,
next to my father, with control
over the knobs. I become him,
a trick, wearing his clothing.
A voice in my head tells me
to drive faster. I resist.
Still the trees blur.